A very good friend of mine who is 6 years recovered from bulimia took me out tonight. She made me eat a piece of carrot cake. She knew I didn’t want to, she could see the fear in my eyes, she could hear my heart beat faster. But she told me that It was my treat for the weekend.
I ate the fucking piece of cake. Yeah, it was good. But the torture that is going on in my head right now is unbearable. All i want to do right now is throw the damn shit up. I can feel it churning in my stomach like globs of goo.
But I know that if I ever want to beat my eating disorder, I have to go at it head first and put myself into uncomfortable situations. I have to recreate how I react to certain scenarios. I have to recreate myself!
I guess a plus of working all day at the surf shop by myself is that I can’t leave to go get food!
I had a great yoga class this morning, my final resting pose (savasana) was so rejuvenating and relaxing! It was just what I needed to start out my day :]
My Lululemon package is being delivered to my work today… I couldn’t be more excited!! Then I have to go to the Lululemon store to pick up my pants that are being altered. I’m pretty much borderline obsessed with Lulu ><
Don't binge, love!! It's honestly not worth it!! Think of how awful you feel after you binge, that whole "I failed" feeling. It's pretty shit, huh? Yeah, definitely not worth it!!! If you're honestly hungry, then eat some veggies! Celery is one of my favorites--the crunch is more satisfying than anything. If you're really hungry then eat something HEALTHY. If you're not HONESTLY hungry, then don't. Good luck, hun~~~~ c:
You’re the best! Literally, as I opened your message, I had a huge fork-full of lettuce going into my mouth! I LOVE VEGGIES!